This post was originally belonging to 26th January 2006 however i put it to this date cause there was some1 who force me to do so..however i personally do not want to edit or delete this post as i felt there was no wrong as it was my personal reflection and toughts..i had asked my friends regarding it and also tok wif my parents abt it..they felt there was nothing wrong..

however..whoever that notice this post..please do not tag abt it or tok abt it..especially to ppl who are link wif the following group of ppl..as i DO NOT wanna cause any trouble..

The organisation name will not be named this time round..however if u wanna noe which organisation is it..but i will call this organisation XYZ

i jus dun wanna cause trouble..not that i agree with XYZ or scare of them..anw..here is the post..

abt tis wk, for some friends who know, i am serving in one of their area ..they were the one who asked me to join and at that time i wan..do really wan..

but after monday, my view changed..why?

cause 1stly, they put me as Probation..wow how "fantastic"..i asked Jo-an and she said last time when she serve as the same area as me, there is no such thing as Probation..

well normally probation is that u cant enter in officially but ppl giv u chance to try it out..like my poly..allowing students who cant get into the course but they put me on probation till they can get good results in their daily grade in school and also they retake in O Level..

well..probation is not a good term to use la..somemore if i fail their evaluation, i dun get into area..i am like -.-"

2ndly, i am not used and not very comfortable with sharing to strangers or talking with them..i lost my words doing so..haiz..sad sad..

well..some friends i tok wif regarding these (names will nto be mentioned) said that i might be more of a PE then what they do --- CE (for their area only).

Well, after much consideration and what this particular friend who told me abt the area..i regard to agree to join in the 1st place..somemore they kinda noe Kun..that make the matters worst..

well aft toking wif my parents during my family talks..i decided to leave area hence i sms the incharge..but they are kinda of like dun let me go kind..lucky i had not sign the Contract to work as area for 4months..

After hearing more from this friend of mine from this area, i decided too to leave cos they are kinda diff from other areas in XYZ, they are kinda of like "bugs" they will try to get u to serve as their area is kinda new and they need ppl to serve..hence i felt a very big burden on me..

i dun wanna to be force to serve and also i dun wanna be like serving when it is not my area..i dun hav the gift of it..and i think even Pastor Dave will agree with me that he too wun wanna see any youths in TM412 too to serve in area that is not their gift which i had learnt as a Leader of TM412 for the past 8yrs..

i had been faithfully serving the Lord in alot of areas in TM412 like u all seen in my profile..now tis is the 1st time that i regret serving in this area..its not my gift and thanks to them too on putting me on probation to allow me to try out too else i wun noe what is installed for me..

i saw lots of diff kind of youths in the diff polys that i had been to..their are liars, friendly, dao, ah-bengs, etc..well u wan it, u hav it..

well now my decision had been made and wif the advice from my parents and friends, that conclude my thots..

i noe they will cont to bug me..which i must find a way to escape from XYZ..haiz..i am happy to be as area's NORMAL member and not as area of service.