Today, i work up SO EARLY and went for duty at office! so sian..

but that not the main issue of the update..

Then after that, rushed home, changed and rush to KCPSS for Frontline Youth's Captain of Glory (aka Captain's Ball)

well, the day went okay actually until after it..

as i was quite tired, hence, i didnt go for CG..well, i went dinner with the a certain age cellgroup..this wasnt the 1st time i join this group..and in the past, they are okay and they even invite me to join em..well, everything was okay..but it spoilt my day when someone (whom i do not wanna mention name) asked/told me 1 thing that hurt me alot and i felt offended too..

"Why suddenly you following us again? Is it that you wanna be young" **something along that line, memory not that good for word for word but this was almost it**

I felt like, you mean i not able to join you all for dinner? The rest are okay but why he ask me this? He look serious when he ask but later like smile as if its a joke? And later when we go to Yoshinoya, we had to split ourselves up as there are quite a number of us, and we end up 1st at this 4 sitter sit and this person quickly rush to the sit where it is not beside nor infront of me of the 4..and later the new fren had to sit beside me and this person said 1 mean thing "you must feel privilege to sit there" i am like "!" **same, something along that line, memory not that good for word for word but this was almost it**

had i offended him? or he hate me (for wat reason?)? or jus simply he jus joking? however the expression he gave me is like "no, he is NOT joking"

Had i grew the bad thot like easily get suspicious towards a thing easily? or is the feeling real? i duno wat is inside this person mind actually..

the reason of why i join this grp for dinner is simply, they are my frenz..secondly, i hav no dinner grp to join as they are the final few grp that are left in KCP..the rest are going out with their new frenz while some to celebrate their victory..

and i think this grp wun mind me joining them hence i join em..and this grp i noe from last yr..that if they got some privacy needed, they will just tell me..and i will surely jus leave (dun join em)..like last yr's new yr countdown..well..i am veri reasonable + understandable..if u need me to leave or dun join, i will be glad to do so..i am not so thick skin kind..

well i really duno why this happen..especially in a christian community where all of us are brothers and sisters in christ?

i felt veri hurt and offended from today..

anw, if i had spoilt/hurt anyone's feeling today, i am sorry as i am didn't mean to do so too..as i didnt noe it did hurt u..

which i think same that the person who hurted me do not noe tat it hurted me..

TO BE CONTINUED . . .