Christmas and New Year..these 2 days are properly the most boring days i will be..seeing people partying..or got countdown gatherings..

If there wasnt any service for this 2 days, i think i will just be bored all by myself.

Last year was fun..i remember new year countdown with the sec4s and it was fun. I really glad that they had invited me :) they are the best group of friends i had.

This year, christmas day countdown was basically spent at home despite the service earlier on the eve of christmas. I know Christmas is to celebrate the birth of the Lord. So i think i am okay in spending it alone?

However, new year is always the hot topic..knowing lots of friends i know will not be going to the church's countdown service makes me sad. Most of them having their own gatherings and parties.

I had my CG, but i had never get to have any enjoyment like the others had. We do not have a countdown gathering for christmas or even new year. knowing that most of them have their own cliques or their FLY's cg's countdown gathering to attend to. I think that is why our cg never had one? even though we have one christmas gathering but that was after the day which is totally different feeling liao. But at least on the christmas day itself this year, i manage to spend times with my poly friends :) i glad to have the get-2-gether.

but this year's countdown, most people i am closer with will not be going..like especially the sec4s..haiz..i am quite sad..last year was definately funz with them and had a memorable countdown gathering with them :)

well this year? i was wondering, what happen after the countdown? the service will end at 12+ then wat to do next? home? =(

haiz..service is definately different from a gathering with friends. If i do not go to the service, i will have no gathering to go to. so i think i should just go? i am not sure? haiz..

i definately will not be able to find any gathering to go to. So service is the only route i can choose from.

Maybe that's how the Lord had built me ba..i dunhav a specific cliques..haiz..which sometime can makes me quite sad.

haiz..

i think enough of complaining..haiz..just hav to see how things go ba?

TO BE CONTINUED . . .