What really happen? Those who follow my facebook and twitter might had known I been scolding myself stupid which was written via my iphone4 on de way home..
Basically my leg ache like mad as it was a very long day that I had stand!
Well that's not de issue..
Most friends should had known, I'm a volunteer @ yog..
So today, der was a guy somehow place 6 yog aik (audience interactive kit aka goodie bag)..
So for almost 4 hours, de kit was next to me..and in my mind I was thinking should I take 1? But the other mind of mine was saying no cos it will be stealing as I dunhav permission..
So aft 4 hrs..being a honest person, I told my sector ic abt de aik tat was left der for 4 hrs..and he jus like oh ok..den ask me place at another corner..so de aik was in my hand..den later..some volunteers jus took it!
I thot they r de volunteers incharge of de aik..
So end of de day, during de debrief..I saw de same group of volunteers havin de aik plus a lot others volunteers having de aik!!
I'm like omg! I should had just left 1 and place de rest at the corner..haiz
So with that knowlege, I beem blaming myself of being stupod..havin de aik in my hand already but yet being a honest boy, returning it and end up I dun hav de aik while others having like de aik and worst some of the volunteers hav 2 aik!
So aft de debrief, I ask de overall volunteer ic..is der spare aik and told him de scenerio of my honesty, he just told me, I should had taken it when I could.
So now..I w/o an aik back home..
I was so so so emo!
Along de way home, I'm so emo..
Blaming and blaming myself of being STUPID!
Some would ask, why I so wan such thing..let me tell u..honestly I'm a bag collector..not normal u can buy bags..is event bags..like ndp..and tis time round, its an once in a life time bag to own! Yog aik! And it was in my hand and I let it go! Argh...thinking of it..just make me feel mad abt myself
But my other mind is thinking, the Lord is testing my honesty here..and I guess I did what a christian should had done ): but am I right?
Now I dunhav de aik ):
EDIT: THANKS OLIVIA S. FOR THE AIK!
That's all for today...
TO BE CONTINUE